you need a warrant, officer.

focusing REALLY HARD on the two things i want most right now. one is coming along, the other remains a semi-lost cause but i’m not giving up. i have all these people looking out for me, so goddamn it why can’t i get a job that’s for grown ups? that’s literally how i feel. i’m 25 and i still feel like a kid sitting at my mom’s, waiting for the world to throw itself at me with blatant messages of what i should do, where i should go, who i should be.

maybe if i was religious, i would feel compelled by some “force” that would tell me these things. but there are no voices telling me what to do, other than the ones in my head, but they’re all mine. sometimes i wish i did take orders, though, it’s easier to take orders than to think and become an individual yourself.

anyway, focusing on these things takes a lot of patience and nothing. the nothing part is what kills me after a while. you put all your eggs in a basket and never know how they end up, it’s almost as if it never even happened. living this way puts me right on the brink of some kind of breakdown, i’m sure of it, i just don’t know what it would look like or if other people would even be able to tell.

i found myself reading all these posts by heroin addicts last night on reddit to pass the time, i’m not sure why i did that. i don’t like knowing other people are suffering… but i do want to hear their thoughts and experiences. living vicariously through heroin addicts.

that and i keep listening to eminem nonstop, seems to be the intended place where my wits and anger have led me.

music, internet, animals, cannabis. food. (of course, my loved ones.) this is pretty much all i have to get me through this period of “wait” and “be patient.” 2 fuckin years, 3 in may, when do i get to stop being patient?

until somebody can answer that for me or get me a better-payin-job, all my base are belong to SLIM SHADY.

Oct 21 2014 • 0 notes

ughjohnwatson:

do you ever get in those moods where you don’t feel like reading and you don’t feel like being on the internet and you don’t feel like watching a show and you don’t feel like sleeping and you don’t feel like existing in general

yeeee.

Oct 20 2014 • 722,831 notes

7 Things I Wish Parents Would Stop Teaching Their Children:


goddess-river:

  1. That nudity is inherently sexual
  2. That people should be judged for their personal decisions
  3. That yelling solves problems
  4. That they are too young to be talking about the things they’re already starting to ask questions about
  5. That age correlates to importance
  6. That interacting with someone of the opposite sex is inherently romantic
  7. That the default for someone is straight and cisgender
Oct 19 2014 • 298,435 notes

Don’t fuck with boys who:


thedangerousautumn:

* are mean to their mothers
* are against feminism
* only want you for your body
* will/are leading you on
* think you owe them something
* think they are entitled to your body

don’t fuck boys who….

Oct 19 2014 • 102,720 notes

sleezed:

I really wanna fuck in a pool. Like the possibilities are endless. My god. But it’s like. Our pool. In our backyard you feel me. Boy. Bet I be eating pussy under water. That’s some wavy next level shit. Put on my goggles. And i’m gone. That’d be some shit if i’m eating her and she’s so into it and she feels me stop and is like ” baby ? ” and i’m on the other side of the pool floating dead. I forgot I needed air. Ain’t even come up smh

Oct 18 2014 • 19,964 notes